Where do I begin?

This blog will be an open book journal, a transcription, a record of my heartbreak and headaches during this very difficult time in my life, in which the love of my life leaves me.

I don't know if this going to turn our to be a very long suicide note or a road to redemption, or if it will just sputter out into nothingness.

I miss her very much. I am sad. I am angry. I am scared.

I am not empty, but what fills me up makes wish that I was.

Perhaps in the next few posts I will try to retrace the last few months and years to give you a perspective of where I am now and why I have no idea where I am headed from here.