Just got an email from 1800Flowers that my debit card was declined on an order I had placed with them. Now, I get a few emails everyday from 1800Flowers about special offers and I usually delete them without opening.
I am glad I opened this one, because I had forgotten about the order I placed, which was for a series of bouquets to go to my wife on the occasion of our one year Wedding anniversary this coming Monday. I placed this order back in February after we had a lackluster Valentines Day celebration. I was still working at the time and we were in the early stages of couples counseling, but I thought we were making progress.
We never took a proper and complete honeymoon, and our original plan to take that special trip for our first anniversary fizzled due to financial and scheduling issues. Even still I had set out to make the anniversary as romantic and celebratory as I could, so I wasted no time in taking advantage of post-Valentines sales offers to place my orders of flowers and other special gifts.
Little did I know that on March 17th at the end of our counseling session that day my wife would state she wanted to get a divorce. I was in shock and denial. Followed by an ongoing wrestling of emotional turmoil that anyone reading this right now must have some idea about, but I will quickly recap by saying that I currently find myself 34 years old, unemployed, and living back with my parents. Divorce papers have been filed and I am consumed with either coming to grips with everything or somehow convincing her to reconcile or at least leave open the option of reconciliation after more counseling and give us another chance.
So I have months ago started preparations for our anniversary, and among the chaos of what followed somehow forgot about what I had already ordered or set in motion. Now I get an email telling me debit card has been declined, as one such order for flowers was being processed and getting ready to ship.
I am mortified because not only do I not want to hurt her by having such gifts arrive on her doorstep and make a difficult situation even worse, but apparently I can add flat broke to my current bio along with my joblessness and sad living arrangement.
The hits just keep coming. I also ordered a custom piece of art as anniversary gift and I am scrambling to see if I can cancel it and possibly get my money back, but I am guessing not since we are already less than a week out.
I am so exhausted, physically and emotionally. And I can’t tell if the universe is trying to tell me I need to stop and give up or if it is just throwing every wrench it can into my plans to see if I can be resilient enough to deserve what I am fighting for.
I am glad I opened this one, because I had forgotten about the order I placed, which was for a series of bouquets to go to my wife on the occasion of our one year Wedding anniversary this coming Monday. I placed this order back in February after we had a lackluster Valentines Day celebration. I was still working at the time and we were in the early stages of couples counseling, but I thought we were making progress.
We never took a proper and complete honeymoon, and our original plan to take that special trip for our first anniversary fizzled due to financial and scheduling issues. Even still I had set out to make the anniversary as romantic and celebratory as I could, so I wasted no time in taking advantage of post-Valentines sales offers to place my orders of flowers and other special gifts.
Little did I know that on March 17th at the end of our counseling session that day my wife would state she wanted to get a divorce. I was in shock and denial. Followed by an ongoing wrestling of emotional turmoil that anyone reading this right now must have some idea about, but I will quickly recap by saying that I currently find myself 34 years old, unemployed, and living back with my parents. Divorce papers have been filed and I am consumed with either coming to grips with everything or somehow convincing her to reconcile or at least leave open the option of reconciliation after more counseling and give us another chance.
So I have months ago started preparations for our anniversary, and among the chaos of what followed somehow forgot about what I had already ordered or set in motion. Now I get an email telling me debit card has been declined, as one such order for flowers was being processed and getting ready to ship.
I am mortified because not only do I not want to hurt her by having such gifts arrive on her doorstep and make a difficult situation even worse, but apparently I can add flat broke to my current bio along with my joblessness and sad living arrangement.
The hits just keep coming. I also ordered a custom piece of art as anniversary gift and I am scrambling to see if I can cancel it and possibly get my money back, but I am guessing not since we are already less than a week out.
I am so exhausted, physically and emotionally. And I can’t tell if the universe is trying to tell me I need to stop and give up or if it is just throwing every wrench it can into my plans to see if I can be resilient enough to deserve what I am fighting for.
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