Reality Check

Just a few days ago started planning a trip to visit Upstate NY, NYC and surrounding areas in late August. My Aunt & Uncle live outside of Albany. But reality has quickly set in and the trip is not going to happen. Just don’t have the money for it, and can’t pass up a full-time or part-time job if the opportunity arises before then. It’s also apparent this toothache isn’t just going away on its own, so I will have to pony up some cash for dental work this coming week. And hopefully once I do find work again I re-commit to finishing all the dental work I still need done. Which will not only improve my oral & overall health, but will improve my confidence and chances of getting acting work next year as I look ahead to giving professional Theatre, TV/Film acting another go. It’s an exciting, but daunting prospect. 

My wife struggled with my inability to make plans for my future, and even though I won’t be able to undo what has happened (and is still happening between us) I do agree with this specific complaint of hers. As happy as I was with her and our life together, it was not sustainable in the long run without me also having personal goals and dreams that I was striving for. I still maintain that I could have changed my perspective and outlook while still being with her and having her support, but she saw different. But that’s a whole other set of issues.