My car is on the precipice of being dunzo for good. I’ve long had electrical issues with it that I can’t afford to get fixed, and at this point it is not even worth putting the money into it. Now I’m having some serious mechanical issues. Could be the engine or the transmission. I can’t even drive it right now for fear of breaking down. Waiting to get a mechanic friend to come over and give it a look. Let me know if it is already toast or if there is a temporary fix. Might have to just sell it for parts.
I had considered trying to sell it last year when I still thought I might be able to get two grand for it. Then just go buy a cheap, smaller, used vehicle with little to no frills while I continue to very slowly put my back life together. Pretty sure I won’t even be able to do that now. My car is the most expensive asset I have and once it is gone it will be that much harder for me to find a job. Best case scenario is I find a job soon and will have to get a loan for a new, which means I won’t be able to save as much and won’t be able to move out of my parents’ house until much further down the road.
I know I shouldn’t complain so much. There are definitely those in much worse situations than I am. At least I have some family to fall back on when things are lean for me. But I can’t just keep spinning my wheels. Friday next week will mark one full year since my-ex wife and I officially separated. I haven’t done shit with my life since then.
Out of desperation I started looking into military service possibilities. Might not qualify due to health issues, but I’m very seriously looking into it. My father was in the Army and Reserves later on. Both of my grandfathers and so many uncles and cousins. I regretted not joining up after high school after having given it serious consideration then. I know I’m not the most natural fit for military lifestyle but I am driven by duty.
It’s not like you can just run away and join the circus anymore, which is unfortunate because I have some actual clown training. Although I’d be a terrible clown.
I had considered trying to sell it last year when I still thought I might be able to get two grand for it. Then just go buy a cheap, smaller, used vehicle with little to no frills while I continue to very slowly put my back life together. Pretty sure I won’t even be able to do that now. My car is the most expensive asset I have and once it is gone it will be that much harder for me to find a job. Best case scenario is I find a job soon and will have to get a loan for a new, which means I won’t be able to save as much and won’t be able to move out of my parents’ house until much further down the road.
I know I shouldn’t complain so much. There are definitely those in much worse situations than I am. At least I have some family to fall back on when things are lean for me. But I can’t just keep spinning my wheels. Friday next week will mark one full year since my-ex wife and I officially separated. I haven’t done shit with my life since then.
Out of desperation I started looking into military service possibilities. Might not qualify due to health issues, but I’m very seriously looking into it. My father was in the Army and Reserves later on. Both of my grandfathers and so many uncles and cousins. I regretted not joining up after high school after having given it serious consideration then. I know I’m not the most natural fit for military lifestyle but I am driven by duty.
It’s not like you can just run away and join the circus anymore, which is unfortunate because I have some actual clown training. Although I’d be a terrible clown.
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