Have written and deleted several times now something to say about Aziz Ansari. I’m disappointed and disgusted in him, but after the icky feeling I had watching Master of None Season 2 I can’t say that I am surprised. I know that as a man, who strives to be a good ally, must remain dedicated to questioning all men (including & especially myself) and listening to all women. And by listening I mean being open to what they have to say, to the experiences they share and most importantly what they want going forward. I can’t just be satisfied with feeling like I know it all and have done nothing wrong so I can just continue to do what I’ve always done.
I just watched “Obvious Child” and my heart fucking hurts so much because it was so funny, beautiful, honest, tender. And it makes me hate my own life and situation a thousand times more tha I already do. I’m supposed to see her on Friday to sign the divorce papers and so she can give me back the rest of the my shit that I left behind in the house that we shared as our home. And when I say shit, I mean exactly that, just crap that I don’t need or want but she can’t stand to have any trace of me left hanging around and doesn’t have the decency to burn it or throw away on her own. Like she even has a photo of me that I had given to her and she wants to return it to me. What the fuck?! It’s for me to process the idea that she is capable of such cruelty. Is it not enough that I am giving her what she wants? Is it not enough that I am left with next to nothing? No job, a broke down car, living with my parents, an entire life and future dreamt of and hoped for dashed. Friends & fami...
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