Moving on

Other than just being sad to very sad most of the time I also seem to be in a nearly permanent pissy mood and I don’t like it. I just want to be happy and not bothered by everything or whatever the closest proximation to that is.

I have a job interview scheduled for next week for a position that I am very much unqualified for but I am trying to not be freaked out or nervous about it. I am trying to convince myself that I have nothing to lose from this. If they don’t hire me no big deal I wasn’t qualified anyway. If they do hire me I’ll be super anxious about how I will succeed but what’s the worst that could happen? I’ll get fired or quit if it doesn’t work out and move on.

Moving on is scary and I’ve been having a lot of difficulty spurring myself on, but it is even more scary and miserable to just continue to be stuck like I am.

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