Hope

I finally saw “Rogue One” yesterday. Will probably take a few days (and maybe another viewing) to process my feelings on it wholly but for time being I am left realizing this is what my life has become. That I can’t make it through a new Star Wars movie without a few crying spells. I cried tears of joy the moment the music hit and the opening crawl started during “The Force Awakens” and then cried a few subsequent times throughout the movie. The tears today while watching “Rogue One” were more somber overall for he obvious reasons and for more personal reasons as my life has taken a sharp decline in the year that passed between the release of these movies. But there is another Star Wars movie coming next December. I don’t know what Episode XIII has in store for us but maybe there will once again be tears of joy mixed in with the tears of sadness. Hope.

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