Today was certainly not the worst day I’ve had at work during my nearly 3 months of employment in this office, but it was still a rough (very busy, short staffed) day and I want to cry out of frustration. I want to cry 😢 about things all the time, but rarely do out of just frustration alone. Must have reached my anger quota for the year, just skipping straight to tears. One more day before a very welcome (although probably not stress-free or relaxing) four day weekend.
I just watched “Obvious Child” and my heart fucking hurts so much because it was so funny, beautiful, honest, tender. And it makes me hate my own life and situation a thousand times more tha I already do. I’m supposed to see her on Friday to sign the divorce papers and so she can give me back the rest of the my shit that I left behind in the house that we shared as our home. And when I say shit, I mean exactly that, just crap that I don’t need or want but she can’t stand to have any trace of me left hanging around and doesn’t have the decency to burn it or throw away on her own. Like she even has a photo of me that I had given to her and she wants to return it to me. What the fuck?! It’s for me to process the idea that she is capable of such cruelty. Is it not enough that I am giving her what she wants? Is it not enough that I am left with next to nothing? No job, a broke down car, living with my parents, an entire life and future dreamt of and hoped for dashed. Friends & fami...
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