Rough sleep last night. Woke up from a night terror at one point drenched in so much sweat I had to make sure I didn’t wet myself. And when I woke up to start the day after even more night terrors I somehow tweaked my right hip. Painful to walk this morning. Getting old sucks. Every time I eat for the last week and half I feel sick. And I’m tired all the time. 
My mom was giving me grief about not having any New Year’s Eve plans. I do have plans. My plan is to sleep as much as possible this three day weekend when it gets here. Let the shit show of 2017 end the same way awful 2016 did, with a whimper. 

And forge ahead in 2018. 

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