I was just forced into putting a good friend into a tough spot by another friend who I am starting to believe that I don’t need to work with anymore.

This all fucking sucks so much. Can’t wait for this job to be over with. I need to trust my instincts more. I’m jumping at anything and everything to distract me, to keep me busy, to keep me moving forward. Because that is what everyone keeps telling me to do. Don’t just sit and suffer.
But I’m not finding peace or purpose. I keep throwing myself into more chaos and uncertainty. I need to reset and refocus. I need to calm my mind and body. I need figure out some things before I can move ahead on a new path.

I’m not saying it’s good for me to be stuck. It’s not being stuck. It’s just a pause, not a stop

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