Passed the test, I suppose.
Went for a drive, taking a long way home after rehearsal because I was feeling panicky and very down. Got pretty dark there for a while, I was getting low on gas, was starting to think about hurting myself.
A song came on the radio. "Black" by Pearl Jam from their debut album, Ten. A song from my favorite band that is a heavy song to listen to currently for it’s lyrical content and imagery. I already wanted to accelerate to 100mph and just veer into an electric pole. This should’ve push me over the edge. But it didn’t. I made it home.
I don’t feel better, not by a long shot, but I know I wasn’t defeated tonight. I thought of calling someone, but couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m going wash my face, brush my teeth, and try to go to bed.
It’s probably going to suck, but it looks like there will be a tomorrow.
Went for a drive, taking a long way home after rehearsal because I was feeling panicky and very down. Got pretty dark there for a while, I was getting low on gas, was starting to think about hurting myself.
A song came on the radio. "Black" by Pearl Jam from their debut album, Ten. A song from my favorite band that is a heavy song to listen to currently for it’s lyrical content and imagery. I already wanted to accelerate to 100mph and just veer into an electric pole. This should’ve push me over the edge. But it didn’t. I made it home.
I don’t feel better, not by a long shot, but I know I wasn’t defeated tonight. I thought of calling someone, but couldn’t bring myself to do it. I’m going wash my face, brush my teeth, and try to go to bed.
It’s probably going to suck, but it looks like there will be a tomorrow.
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