"I am not happy. I am not unhappy. I am frozen somewhere in the middle that is so much worse. I am nowhere. Nothing is happening and I am getting more and more sad."
- Samantha Schutz, I Don’t Want To Be Crazy

 I am terrified at just how miserable I am when I take it all in. I have to block some of it out to just get by day to day. It won't take much of a win to get the ball going in the other direction, but it is so tiring waiting and working for a win that just doesn't seem to be coming.

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