two thoughts

At times we are forced to change who we are for better or worse. We have to mourn versions of ourselves that can no longer be. I don’t want to be a lesser version of myself. I can’t be who I once was. All I can do is become better than I am now.

I keep thinking it is already later in the week. And feeling this weird urgency for the weekend to come. Not sure why. I have nothing going on this week Nothing whatsoever going on this weekend. My life is pretty much in a dead zone right now. If I don’t find a job or a new path or new passion or something that drives me forward soon I’m not sure how much longer I can stop myself from just fading away.

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