Summertime blues
I slept in on Saturday until 10:30, which is very late for me. Then I took a solid 90 minute nap that afternoon while babysitting my 18 month old cousin while she also napped. I knew catching up on that much sleep would result in a very difficult time getting to sleep later that same evening. And she enough I got home from my performance of “Sweeney Todd” at 11pm, was exhausted but didn’t get to sleep until after 3am.
It is now just after 6:30am and I’m wide awake but still exhausted and emotionally drained as I had a very intense and unpleasant dream about my ex-wife during my all too brief night of sleep.
I am on medication again, but was going to wait until I paid off my debts and could afford to move out of my parents’ home before I started talk therapy again due to the cost and time it takes. Not sure I can wait that long anymore.
Things have been rough for a few weeks now. I used to have a very blue period in July, but now it starts in late May and carries into August. Too many bad memories from long ago and others much more recent during the hot, summer months. The heat and the grief are oppressing.
It is now just after 6:30am and I’m wide awake but still exhausted and emotionally drained as I had a very intense and unpleasant dream about my ex-wife during my all too brief night of sleep.
I am on medication again, but was going to wait until I paid off my debts and could afford to move out of my parents’ home before I started talk therapy again due to the cost and time it takes. Not sure I can wait that long anymore.
Things have been rough for a few weeks now. I used to have a very blue period in July, but now it starts in late May and carries into August. Too many bad memories from long ago and others much more recent during the hot, summer months. The heat and the grief are oppressing.
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