Yesterday would've been my third Wedding Anniversary
I wasn’t even thinking all that much about this date coming up until a bad dream the night before last. Now I’m bogged down in “Sliding Doors” like scenarios.
Would she be making jokes about my recent change to wearing glasses like how she was “married to a new man” or “I’m cheating on my husband with this guy in glasses”.
Would we be planning our 5th anniversary trip to Italy as we had discussed right after getting married. Excited that it was only two years away.
Would we already have started a family. We had agreed to start trying and planning at beginning of 2017. Giving ourselves a year & half of just being newlyweds. Settling into married life before taking that next step.
Would we have looked more seriously into a move to D.C. or NYC as had been discussed as possibilities if we ever decided to leave Texas for a new adventure and to be closer to her college friends on the East Coast.
Would it all have just fallen apart in another six months or another year if it hadn’t when it did.
I still have to stop myself from texting or tagging her on social media when I find a meme I love that reminds me of her humor and interests.
I have to stop myself from saying and doing many things now, and try to stop myself from even thinking about so many things.
Would she be making jokes about my recent change to wearing glasses like how she was “married to a new man” or “I’m cheating on my husband with this guy in glasses”.
Would we be planning our 5th anniversary trip to Italy as we had discussed right after getting married. Excited that it was only two years away.
Would we already have started a family. We had agreed to start trying and planning at beginning of 2017. Giving ourselves a year & half of just being newlyweds. Settling into married life before taking that next step.
Would we have looked more seriously into a move to D.C. or NYC as had been discussed as possibilities if we ever decided to leave Texas for a new adventure and to be closer to her college friends on the East Coast.
Would it all have just fallen apart in another six months or another year if it hadn’t when it did.
I still have to stop myself from texting or tagging her on social media when I find a meme I love that reminds me of her humor and interests.
I have to stop myself from saying and doing many things now, and try to stop myself from even thinking about so many things.
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