Tomorrow I begin week 4 at my new job and I have a serious case of Sunday blues. Not wanting to go to work tomorrow. That didn't take long.
Maybe I’m overly sensitive because I have been sick for almost a week and feel like crap still. At a time when I was being very active and had new things going on. Can’t just sit still and rest like I need to. But I’ve already let some friends know that if they hear of or find out about any job openings that would suit me to please let me know.
While I was very happy to finally find steady work and have a means to support myself again and feel confident in myself, it hasn’t felt like a place I want to be long-term. I by no means would consider leaving this job before I had something else lined up. I have been burned too many times by doing that in the past. This place isn’t right for me, but I can handle working there in the interim.
The things I don’t like about the job: there is just so much complaining and finger-pointing plus a general personal coldness. And I’m not someone that requires a lot of warmth or comfort in a work environment. I can compartmentalize with the best of them and just do the job, but it’s mostly just an overall feeling. And I hate the commute and the schedule doesn’t have much flexibility.
I think this is a good thing to realize early on. I can make a plan and find something else. I’m not just taking what comes, but doing something. Already starting to get a better idea of what I’d like for myself going forward. Something I didn’t have much grasp on a month ago when I was still reeling from the “Lose my business/Get Separated & Divorced/Move Back in with Parents/Stay Unemployed for over a Year” whirlwind.
For now I just have to keep staying on goal financially and get my debt paid off and get myself a car again. From there I’ll feel even better about dipping my tows out into the job search vortex again.
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