Had an impromptu interview today in person with two former co-workers at a place I worked at from 2004 to 2010. A former supervisor of mine that I have remained friends with had initiated me coming in to apply for a current open position. I had never considered it in the past because I had left that place of employment on not great terms with the company since I had hastily quit on the spot without giving notice. But apparently they are open to me returning now, as I had good relationships with co-workers who are now in supervisor & management roles. It’s a position that is a few rungs down the ladder from where I had left the company seven years ago, but that’s just a part of starting over. My immediate goals are just finding gainful employment, paying off my debts (which really aren’t much), getting a car, and getting the fuck out of my parents house. I also have a second phone interview this afternoon with another company, so after a slow period the past month and a half I finally have some momentum and just hope that I get an offer, from anyone soon.
I just watched “Obvious Child” and my heart fucking hurts so much because it was so funny, beautiful, honest, tender. And it makes me hate my own life and situation a thousand times more tha I already do. I’m supposed to see her on Friday to sign the divorce papers and so she can give me back the rest of the my shit that I left behind in the house that we shared as our home. And when I say shit, I mean exactly that, just crap that I don’t need or want but she can’t stand to have any trace of me left hanging around and doesn’t have the decency to burn it or throw away on her own. Like she even has a photo of me that I had given to her and she wants to return it to me. What the fuck?! It’s for me to process the idea that she is capable of such cruelty. Is it not enough that I am giving her what she wants? Is it not enough that I am left with next to nothing? No job, a broke down car, living with my parents, an entire life and future dreamt of and hoped for dashed. Friends & fami...
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