maybe

maybe this will be the week i start to move on
find a job
find a purpose
sleep longer
eat healthier
exercise more
not give up or give in
maybe this will be the week i get it together
laugh harder
cry less
stop waiting
start doing
maybe this will be the week my life will change for the better
maybe this will be the week it all comes together
or maybe it won’t
maybe this won’t be the week i start over
maybe i’ve been starting over every single day for a while now
maybe each day is just a battle of its own
maybe i take the good with the bad
just keep trying
not looking around for benchmarks
maybe this week i don’t compare myself to others
even all the other selves have been before
especially those other selves
maybe the bigger and better things i hope and strive for
are never going to come
maybe it doesn’t even matter if they do
maybe i just keep fighting for it anyway
maybe that’s all that matters