July 16

Not a single family member or friend has called. Texted. Sent a Facebook message. E-mailed. Nothing. 
It starts off with people coming to actually see you in person. Then it’s a phone call. Then a text message. Eventually just a post your Facebook wall or a comment on something you have posted on social media. Then nothing. And perhaps it should be that way. 
Life goes on. Everything has a shelf life. It doesn’t mean they aren’t thinking about it. It doesn’t mean they don’t care. But they have moved on. Those of us who will never be lucky enough to do that, well the best we can hope for is just a day spent surrounded by love and life. But I don’t have such things in my orbit currently, so I just try to make it through the day and onto the next. 

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