After Burn

Monday was tough. Computer systems at work were buggy or down most of the day (and then buggy through rest of the week) due to issues with an upgrade that didn't work very well. Tuesday morning I overslept and was running late for work when I got into a car accident. It was my fault. I was waiting to merge onto a highway, sneezed and hit the gas accidentally. Slammed into a truck in front of me with a large trailer hitch. Nobody was hurt. The other car didn't even have any damage. The trailer hitch absorbed my blow and pierced my car's grill causing quite a lot of damage. Had to get towed to the body shop and miss work that day since I didn't get my rental until 4pm. Amidst a very tough week I decided to start a new intermittent fasting routine to help with my health and stave off diabetes for as long as I can. It’s a 16-8 intermittent fast whereupon I only eat meals between 1pm and 8pm, so my body has longer overnight and next day fasting period to burn more fat. Te...

It’s been a good movie watching weekend. Watched Alien (1979) Friday night. Saw The Meg (2018) last night which was a lot of fun. Watched Revenge (2018) earlier this evening which was intense as fuck and very good. Now watching Aliens (1986) to wrap up the weekend.  I’ve also been binging Jeopardy now that is streaming on Hulu with last tournament of champions episodes.  And I bought a new pair of boots today. And have done a lot of housework that I was behind on.  But still have had a depression nap each day and bad nightmares. Ups and downs. Always ups and downs. But at least the ups are not completely washed out by the downs. 

Having trouble getting my 19-month old cousin Lily to bed tonight. She’s always been bad about fighting bedtime. This second consecutive Friday night I’ve watched her and will have her tomorrow for most the day again, too. Then I’m supposed to go to a kind of depressing even tomorrow afternoon/evening for family that I am not looking forward to. My cousin Katie is having a birthday party/celebration of life for her sister Natalie that died 3 years ago this month when the motorcycle she was riding on was hit by a drunk driver, just days after her 26th birthday. It’s a big part of why August wraps up the entire shitty Summertime.Nothing but shit memories of trauma between late May and beginning of September. Been having very vivid and disturbing dreams lately. Just psychological fuckery. Covering the same ground over and over in new and twisted ways. Always feeling just real enough to play with my head in the days following. I took a sick day from work on Tuesday and that made the week...